Secrets

Blood Sugar: 210

So I was reading a guest post on the Diabetes OC and Leann talked about how she used to hide the fact that she was diabetic. Talk about relating. I spent years trying to keep it a secret. I didn't want anyone that did know to speak of it. I took great pains to make sure that I was always able to hide it. But why? It was simply the fact that I didn't want to be viewed as different. I didn't want to be categorized as sick. I didn't want to be singled out as "the diabetic". I just wanted to be. It seems so silly to me now. I mean, I'm writing a blog that focuses on being a person living with diabetes and I have pretty much opened the door to my life...my stuff...my eccentricities about it all...what do you do? The other day Dear Abby had a letter from a person that was recently diagnosed with diabetes and she was asking if it was appropriate to inject herself while at restaurants and whatnot...It was so relieving to read that someone else was asking this kind of question. I, too, have found myself places where I wondered if it were OK to just go ahead and shoot up...I couldn't see the logic of going to a public restroom to inject myself...OH THE GERMS!!!! I always tried to be discrete, but I wasn't shy. It's funny how I have changed. The big secret has changed into a badge of honor, if you will. You know, Hey! Look at me! I'm diabetic. Is is maturity? Maybe, but I think it is more of an acceptance of self. Why should I let anyone or what they think of me define me? I define me. I am what I am and you can take it or leave it. Once you accept yourself, and your condition there is no reason to ever look back. I hope you aren't hiding your illness...embrace it and live, it's not going anywhere!